I discussed it with her at the next session. She was really surprised at what I said to her, it was a difficult session. Since then we’ve talked about it a bit more, but somehow not quite resolved the rupture. I can’t sleep properly. I like her a lot and I want to carry on seeing her, but on the other hand if I don’t start sleeping better I’m not going to be able to function at work. I’ve decided to quit. I find therapy so incredibly hard. I wish she had something like this when I’ve talked to her about the ‘rupture’: ‘ I don’t get everything right and I see now that I didn’t give you what you needed last week’. Instead she was a bit silent, and she came back the next week with some reflections about me, and I had the feeling that the source of our rupture was being placed firmly with me. I don’t know if my feeling was accurate. I wish she had been gentle and humble. I don’t know if I’ll ever try therapy again. I’ve 95% decided I’m going to quit.