How can I get tested to know if I am bipolar? Bipolar runs in my family, and I cant go to a doctor to get tested, I have very little money, and what money I do have goes to my bills, but I really think there is something wrong with me, and I want help, but everything in this world cost so much money....

But I get these ruts of depression, that I will be stuck in for like weeks on end and then somewhere in the depression I will have a fit of rage that is sometimes almost impossible to control, and recently the fits of rage have been extreme, I even tried to kill my boyfriend, but he stopped me, and instead of calming down I waited til he went to sleep and called the cops and said that he beat me, which that got me evicted from my apartment for three days, once i returned I promised to get better, but I only went off again like a lose cannon, I took his laptop and smashed it into pieces, I am lucky he is still with me, but I have been working real hard on my rage, trying to control it. But sometimes my rage I take out on me, I have been cutting myself again. I dont know what to do anymore, its like my parents dont support me, because they think " mental disorders " arent real, and i dont know how to talk to them about what is going on, and my boyfriend thinks if I just dont believe there is a problem it will go away, and I have been doing that my whole life and now look at me!

I have medical insurance and want to know if I have some sort of outlet or help I can get, I dont have a lot of money, so please help me out, give me some kind of advice, I am a lost soul here.