Been a while since I checked in. I agree with others that social media has a way of taking folks aways from forums like this, and also COVID had brought a lot of people here that have just since disappeared. I remember years ago too, I loved being here and still do, but the crowd has definitely thinned out.
I am feeling pretty good overall. Having a really good time with my new boyfriend, who has helped me heal so much from my ex. I've stopped wondering on whether or not it was too soon to get into another relationship, but all I know is I am enjoying it, and enjoying sex a lot more than I ever had, which is unusual because like others have said, meds used to affect that a lot.
Sleep has been becoming an issue. Not that I feel mania, but being sober has honestly helped me feel certain feelings that I never could before. Even with my CPAP, I am averaging about 6 hours a night when I used to get a full 8. Life has slowed down as well, where things are becoming clearer about my future - I can't tell you guys enough about what it's like to be with someone who doesn't drink or smoke - I never realized how much of a difference it has made.
My doctor is discontinuing my Lithium. I have always feared that medicine, just because of the damage I know it causes. Someone else had mentioned Risperdone, I take 2mg at night, and I think that does the trick for me. It's a very helpful medicine.
Just overall, I feel really good. I did have an inclination to take a drink on Sunday though. I went to a funeral for a friend who was only 30 years old. I saw a lot of old friends, and even though it was really good to see them, being there and feeling all that sadness made me crave a drink, which I haven't in a long time. Came home and had some ice cream though and that helped, but I am very much aware that my addiction is still doing sit ups in the corner getting stronger while it's waiting for me to give in.