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Old Jun 11, 2024, 04:39 PM
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I have a job interview on Friday. Lots of stressful stuff going on right now in my life.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. It’s about to be 3 days without THC. Idk if I should mention that my anxiety is really bad. That’s probably my own fault for vaping THC a couple days ago. I’m trying to stop. Part of me feels like I can do it in moderation but part of me thinks it’s a bad idea because it tends to trigger psychotic like symptoms in me. I want to be able to have it in moderation but idk if that’s possible or stupid to think or hope for. I didn’t start smoking or taking edibles until 2-3 months ago. I just turned 30 last week. I smoked a couple times when I was 16 and experimented with some other stuff when I was 19 but had a very bad experience that scared me away from any and all substances for 10 years. But I started vaping and taking edibles recreationally 2-3 months ago mainly because my boyfriend does that and recommended it to help with stress. And it does to an extent. And it can feel good sometimes. But sometimes it goes terribly wrong and I end up paranoid and panicking and delusional for like 5-6 days after last having THC.
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Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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