@ScarletPimpernel thank you! It reassures me to know someone else's has addressed the topic with a straight T. I think the fact she is straight and I'm not makes me more self-conscious as I'm afraid she might "take it personally" or think they are "real feelings". It's good she convinced you to talk about it. I mentioned them at the end of the session (ah ah!) so time was up! I will try and gather the courage to bring it up again. I don't know what makes it so hard to speak again. How did you go about it if I can ask? Did you just say "i had some fantasies I'd like to talk about"?