@comrademoomoo thank you so much for your validation and kind reply. I hope my T will see it that way too, as an opportunity to deepen the work we are doing together and not something shameful (which I'm what I'm worried about). I trust my T and I also think she took it well as she asked me "do you have feelings for me?" I think I'm confused about whether she thought my transference was maternal, as she spoke about motherly feelings and sounded surprised when i said they were sexual. I think she would not react badly but I could sense a bit of surprise/ discomfort about the sexual nature but hopefully it was just because it was unexpected.