I'm sorry you're struggling Brown Owl. It's frustrating to make an investment into a relationship and then to have it not work out, even if it's a short relationship.
I thought they had to at least take clinical notes for legal reasons?
L has an awesome memory AND takes some notes in session, and writes up notes after session (these I assume are clinical). It's a little annoying when she stops in session to take a note, but I'd rather her do that then forget something.