Depression has really got a hold of you. It is just awful.

During bad depression I sometimes think: Nothing's going to change, unless I change something. What can I change? If I come up with something, that can be a breakthrough.

What's most awful is when you believe there is nothing you can change that will matter. If that's where you're at, I'm sorry . . . because that's real rough. When I've been in that state, I start looking at what alternative options I could possibly consider that might seem rather drastic.

But, sometimes, you just come up with nothing.