In my usual turn of events, life goes well for a short while till it comes crashing down. The past few nights have been rough and very emotional. Feeling guilty about being happy and about my ex - he plagues my mind still. Concerning to me because these painful episodes happen at night, and I already haven't been sleeping my full 8 hours.
I don't want to ruin my new relationship, and I know he's concerned. I've been crying, going to places I shouldn't, and pretty much doing self-sabotaging things. My life is pretty amazing, this is the life I've always prayed for, so I don't know why I am trying everything I can to ruin it. Why the heck can't I just enjoy it? Going to increase my therapy appointments to once a week again instead of every other week, I think I really need it.