I am sorry that you are in a place where you feel no one understands you. Along with the therapy you have done, the doctors you have seen, calling crisis. There is an implication there; you even state that people simply are not listening. I understand your concern about never going back to a hospital. If they ever think I am going into one again, they had better come heavy as that will be a tumultuous day. I've been through everything I had to endure since I was 14. I have cancer. I have been on the Covid train four times. I can tell you that, in my opinion, I have had to spend


much time in hospitals. After two attempts to animate me through more of this, I had my right lung removed. Two rounds of chemo and have been irradiated so much that I am not sure I don't glow in the dark. If I was healthy and given the choice, and was not 53, between having to be in extreme combat or being in a hospital. Give me my equipment and roll the bird in. Somalia was safer than any of those places. Worse, I am a trained and still licensed physician who feels this way. That is an explosive statement about our medical system. When one is isolated and feels

as if no one is listening to them, caring, or understanding, it is an utterly horrible feeling, and I wish circumstances and things were as they are. I am someone initially intertwined in that feeling. People think I am weird; I look directly at things and slice through them. You would be surprised at how many are uncomfortable with that concept. As far as being a good listener and knowing what you are describing. I wish I were in your circle as I would listen to you. My whole life has been in the trenches, and I know what that is all about. I don't have to have Aspergers to be able to empathize with you. I am glad that you found a good doctor; I have had some good ones who retired, and I have always been a late arrival. My current clowns seem to have a strategy

of helping me by inducing a coma. I nicknamed my original psychiatrist, a.k.a. 10 Yards and a Cloud of Xanax. That's just for starters; I have three doctors prescribing stuff; they must have some kind of feud going as they refuse to ever talk to one another. The meds I am on have so many interactions that if you typed them into Medscape, it would blow up. My mistake with the pain management folks from Tennessee Cancer Specialists was that it would be 4 writing and digitally sending in scripts. I don't think he talks to any of the others, either. if there is any way I can ever help you, I will, I am weird but steady. I am so terribly sorry you have had such a hard time.