I have to be careful with movement now, as it’s easier to tweak something now.

And I’ve had people tell me what I should do or judge me without knowing me at all and the kinds of experiences I’ve had. Many years ago when I was volunteering at the library, another volunteer who was much older actually said to me “You are a young woman. Why are you doing all this volunteering? You should be working.” Note the word “should” which has negative connotations. I was literally too shocked and speechless to respond. I mean that someone would say that to someone else, if they know them or not.

I was doing it to feel productive and a part of something since I couldn’t find work. But that’s not her business. I’m such a different person now that if that happens now, I wouldn’t mince words believe me. Been through some real bs , to h e l l and back and still find hellish situations. Anyway I’d ask how is this your business. Efffing people. And like you I’ve tried things and they didn’t pan out the way I hoped. Right now I’m out of gas and just surviving. I need structure and familiarity since I’ve had so much turmoil in my life.



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