Today it hit me that part of the reason bipolar symptoms weigh me down (when actively experiencing them and when stable) is because my brain never adjusted its expectations to what my day to day life can look like. Despite it being a few years, I guess I still haven't accepted that this is a chronic thing that isn't going to just magically go away and that, even if I end up being stable for years at some point, it will still impact my day to day life because I will have to work to keep that stability.