My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar Check-in #80

LadyShadow · Jun 22, 2024, 10:27 PM

Welcome @PHewson! I hope you like our little thread here. Everyone is so nice and welcoming. Hopefully we will get to see your updates on how you are doing and things as the days progress. We would love to see your posts!

Me, well, I'm just a cluster*uck of emotions. There are things about my boyfriend's living situation that aren't ideal and keeping us apart that is starting to show its ugly head. I guess reality has just set in and I am feeling overly emotional about it. I am having a lot of thoughts about my ex, especially since my birthday is next week and his is 6 days after mine. I am feeling strongly about it because we used to always celebrate together, and my anxiety is starting to skyrocket.

I don't know, I am going to church tomorrow, and I am just going to pray. I keep forgetting to allow God into my heart and help me through all these emotions. It's just so hard to reach for a higher power when you're so deep in your feelings. I have everything to be happy about, but I am just finding more and more ways to drown in sorrow. I hate this. Maybe men like my ex are just what I deserve.