I still don't think my med changes (decreasing Emsam 3 days/week and lowering my 11 pm gabapentin from 500 mg to 400 mg) is working all that well. My head noise is back. I still have some periods of silence but the noise is there a lot. I also feel more anxious and irritable. I really want to be on less meds but I think if I'm going to keep the gabapentin low I'm going to have to increase my Seroquel to 75 mg which I really do not want to do. I don't want to start the sliperry slope of increasing Seroquel doses again. I know I can't take it as monotherapy as it stopped working completely after being on it for several years (which clozaril doesn't seem to do). Tonight I feel antsy. I got stung by a hornet 2 days ago and it's itchy and generally uncomfortable. I've been taking Benadryl which helps some but scares me because when they gave it to me in the hospital it made me incredibly agitated. That may be partly why I'm irritable although I have felt sleepy, not agitated on the Benadryl and am just being cautious.

I see my pdoc in a week so hopefully she'll know what to do to fix all this. We have to lower something or next winter I'll just wind up on even more than I'm taking.