There’s a lot of ‘what if’s’ I could drive myself crazy thinking about. Just last March I was preparing myself to have a baby this fall. I couldn’t have envisioned that I would have a tragic loss and then ultimately give up on TTC because of my husband’s addiction. I’m just taking things one day at a time now and being kind to myself. So honestly, I’m not really thinking a year ahead right now. I’m trying to find my sense of self. And I know that recovery isn’t an overnight thing. It’s a process.

At least I can say that right now he’s talking with a caring person that can hopefully be his sponsor. So that is a big step for him actually, since he doesn’t open up to many people and has social anxiety.