This is the oddest thing
This is what I知 feeling, not what I think or what I知 acting on.
I feel lonely, I feel like I知 missing her, I feel like maybe I contributed to this mess, maybe I could get through to her if I tried again, I知 worried for her safety, I知 scared of the pain she can cause me, I知 scared of the disarray she can cause, I知 scared of her showing up here looking for help, I知 scared of her destroying our financial futures., I知 scared that the kids need her and I致e contributed to the alienation