Thanks for your understanding Ryan. It would help if my @#$& meds would work but I don't think they do. Had an argument with my pdoc about it yesterday. I can't get her to understand. She added Risperdal but what I really need is an increase in ADs and that she refuses to budge on. I'm shopping around for either a 2nd opinion on my meds or a new pdoc who will listen to how I'm feeling and weigh out both ends of the spectrum and realize which one is more dangerous. She fails to put 2 and 2 together. I understand her reasoning for not wanting to give me the increase but the risk of not doing so is far greater. I can't seem to get her to understand that.