That's a good point about the thinking there will be "one big transformational event" thing and no messy parts. I probably do tend to want something like that. I mean I am a bit of a drama queen after all, so it makes sense. Maybe I can try to look at it more as, when I graduated from high school and had to leave behind my favorite teacher that I had spent a lot of time talking with - I missed her a lot for that first semester in college, but then it all settled and I didn't think about her that much anymore. I just need more than a semester for this one - because I had known the teacher for only 2 school years, and I saw L for a lot longer.