<font color="blue"> i've had trust issues all my life. i don't talk about my situation because of that. even the things that truely scare me, i say nothing about them. my best friend stopped talking to me two years ago, just when everything fell apart.

an event that i go to every july for the past 11 years is coming up. every year before, i get super excited about it months ahead of time. this year, there's nothing inside me - is that the final straw??? </font>