Hello, I'm not sure if this is the place to post it, but this forum seemed the best one for this subject, but i am sorry if i am wrong:

I really need help.
I get really depressed for a few days or so , but then im ok. and somestimes I would completley blow up, breaking plates and crying and being so angry i want to die right there, for the ltitles things. something as simple as me cant gettin gmy lock on my locker to open will send me in tears.
Also, i forget things constantly...for example, my camera was upstairs. my charger was downstairrs. it took me 45 minutes to get the two together because i would go upstairs, not realizing my I brought my charger, find my camera, somehow (i dont remember) i put my charger down upstairs so when i took my camera downstairs my charger isnt there, i look for it, go back upstairs(but left my camera downstairs b/c i didnt realize i set it down or i didnt remeber) find my charger....the cyle goes on. 45 minutes it took to do such a simple thing.
One day i was so fed up with the forgetfulness. my friend let me borrow his calculator. i used it in class then after class i found him, and teh calculator was gone. i ran back to my other class, having only been gone for 2 minutes, it should still be there. i asked everyone in the room and the next day i asked my class. but anyway, it was gone, and it was because i probably took it out or set it out and didnt rememeber or didnt realize i did. I had to go home early because i could not stop crying. If i'm late to things, i feel like i have to throw up nd i cry. its insane.
I also lie. ALOT. well, actually, it used to be alot, but i now i try to catch myself before i say it so that i wont. i basically created these stories about myself but i would say them without really thinking i was lying. it seems so natural. it flows off the tongue. I hate it. bascially i have a story for one person, as in cynthia thinks la la la about me (huge untrue story) but bob things dee dee dee (a different story)

Any explanations??? My dad took me to a phsyciatrist because of teh temper tantrums things, but he said i was going for a regular doctors check up and we ended up at a phyciatrists so i was uncooperative cus it made me really angry...and i cant admit to him that i need one now that i was so uncooperate before...

I know this was long, but i'm really desperate, i cant sleep, I'm lying, I'm depressive ( i will nto get out of bed because i really just want to lay there), I explode in tears at stupdi things and i explode in anger at stupid things. I'm 17 years old and i really do need help...I'm sorry if this wasnt the right way to ask for it but i have no idea what i'm doing so please forgive my naiveness...and my typos, i have to type this quickly becuase i'm on my dad's computer.

thank you so much