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Manarinorange · 04:56 AM

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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

Yeah. I'm on a shyt ton of gabby too. 3200mg (800mg 4x a day) but when my psychiatrist tried reducing the dose I had TERRIBLE anxiety, so I'm kind of stuck on it I guess. I don't mind though. It hasn't turned me into a moron. At one point in my life I was on 4mg of clonazepam and got a psychiatrist who took me off it in two months. It was one of the worst experiences of my life!!! I cried TWICE during the withdrawal. I'm currently on 30mg of diazepam, scheduled, so I'm really not looking forward to ANOTHER nightmare benzo withdrawal!

Benzos are evil. I'm pissed I allowed myself to even be put on one again to begin with.

I'm sorry to hear about your awful anxiety. I hate anxiety. I'd rather have depression than anxiety! Anxiety ruins your life in so many ways. I'm also afraid of driving. I don't drive anymore, except to the store and the gas station. And I've never been able to drive on the highway. Have you ever tried seroquel for your awful anxiety? It really works wonders! Sadly it causes weight gain though, so I'm just a little fat.

I'm sorry to hear about your son. That has to be very hard. I have a 12 year old daughter with anxiety/panic disorder and mild depression and it makes me feel so bad. Just the other night we were BOTH badly anxious at the same time and having anxiety shyts and I took us on a walk thinking it would maybe help us, but it just made us feel worse!!! Ugh! Stupid anxiety! I wish she didn't inherit it from Husband and I. Makes me feel so bad.

I would love to use seroquel for my issues, but I I gained 40 lbs on it in 6 six months. I do take 50 mgs to sleep. I take a lot of meds for sleep. I forgot to take my 2 mgs of klonipin Friday night and Saturday I was trembling, sweating and very anxious. It wasn't until Saturday night that I figured it out. So I've decided I'm going to work my butt of learning cbt but not come off any meds. Just get better at dealing with my anxiety right now. I might also get a workbook.

Possible trigger:

My son doesn't live with me. He did something to me and I don't feel safe having him living with me. He came for a visit 2 weekends ago and threw a big chair across the room. He hears a ton of voices. But he's on 15 mgs of invega and 600 mgs of seroquel. I've learned there are 2 types of schizophrenic.s, the passive kind and the violent kind. Unfortunately he's the violent kind. So we both decided no more overnight visits for now. He can come in the day. Now that it's the 1st he's going to be calling me asking for all kinds of things. Bc wheree's at He only gets $100 of his ssi. He is addicted to energy drinks and nicotine pouches.

He was 19 when he started having delusions. Thinking ppl were drugging him etc. He was hospitalized about 7 times. He was smoking weed and he would get violent if I didn't buy him it. He wouldn't take his meds. So a big incident happened 4 yrs ago. Believe me when a psychiatrist told me he had schizophrenia I cried for days. He was doing so good. He was working at a grocery store and he really buckled down and lost 80lbs. Now he's completely different and he's at a really good place now. He was in a pretty bad group home but he kept acting out bc they had his meds all wrong. So he was in the hospital for 2 months while my sister and I looked for other places. This place goes on outing and things. Like yesterday they went bowling and he didn't go. When I asked him why he didn't go he said it was stupid and hung up on me. He is very difficult to deal with. Today he will be bugging me for money. I'm on ssi, I can give him like $30 a month but he bugs and bugs me for money. I miss my old son.