Maybe this could be the wake up call you you to make better choices when faced with acting out? When faced with having $5 instead of buying bingable food, choose the healthy option, instead of taking that first drink, say no. Raise the 1and 2s to 3and 4s by choosing to remember how it felt to see the 1s and change the action? I remember that seeing the report that was sent to the court that committed me to a state hospital I definitely learned to clean up before I saw any social worker or doctor. Before seeing that in black and white I didn’t care how I looked to them. But to them it’s an indication that you don’t care. I still didn’t care much if I lived or died but I cared what they wrote on those reports. And slowly it changed me into choosing the better options.