I'm sorry you're facing this setback and that you've been unsuccessful so far in finding a job, the job market can be brutal.

Please try not to feel bad about needing assistance - it's there for a reason, and they wouldn't give it to you if you didn't need it. Even though I'm working, I'm still on ODSP, albeit at a lower monthly payment than if I wasn't working. But it covers me for my meds and dental which I'm grateful for. I'm just grateful for the extra support.