I'm sorry you're facing this setback and that you've been unsuccessful so far in finding a job, the job market can be brutal.
Please try not to feel bad about needing assistance - it's there for a reason, and they wouldn't give it to you if you didn't need it. Even though I'm working, I'm still on ODSP, albeit at a lower monthly payment than if I wasn't working. But it covers me for my meds and dental which I'm grateful for. I'm just grateful for the extra support.
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn.
"If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba