I'm doing a bit better today, still anxious but not having panic attacks at least. I am on buspirone and propranolol for anxiety, but sometimes I feel like that is not quite enough and long to be back on clonazepam. However, I've noticed my concentration and forgetfulness is much better off clonazepam (and I can read actual books again!), so it's a trade-off, like always on these meds. Such as Cymbalta gives me tinnitis (ringing in my ears), but I'd rather deal with that that be suicidal. It's minor tinnitus or at least bearable tinnitus to me.

My mood is okay, level I'd guess, but meds tend to blunt my emotions too. Level is better than mania though. It's when I accidentally skip meds or accidentally double (sometimes triple the doses) or mix up night & day meds or make mistakes filling my pillboxes that I get into trouble, usually ending up in mania followed by psyhosis quite rapidly. H swears I'm on so many meds there is no way he could keep them straight to fill my pillboxes and sometimes I think it's a wonder that I can. Or when life events hit me - deaths in the family (natural but still), H losing his job, etc. I end up in trouble.