10 years ago when I moved into this house my therapist told me I'd know I was settled into my home when I knew where the light switches are. That seemed sensible until this morning when I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and apparently didn't know where the entire door was. I smacked straight into the doorframe with my forehead. I've gone to the bathroom in the dark a thousand times here but this morning I guess I just forgot. I'm fine, just a bump and a bruise. This has not been my month.


Still anxious about my therapist going on medical leave but trying to stay calm about it. I can't do much about it until I can talk to him next week. And I'm not sure even that is going to help much. What's he supposed to say, that he won't do it because I'm anxious? I think this is also raising anxiety about what it will be like when he retires in 2 years and this feels like a practice run for that.

I keep trying to remember this will be completely over in 12 weeks or less and that is not such a long time.