Today was an alright day. Slept in, ran a couple of errands, and tidied up a bit. I'm starting to get nervous about my endoscopy. I'm not really nervous about the procedure, but I don't like having to ask others for help in such a big way. And, I'm worried what I'll say when the meds they'll give me will kick in. When I have any type of sedation, during the phase where I'm awake but don't remember anything, my subconscious tends to come out big time. I hate thinking about what I might say, somewhat in front of the medical team but especially in front of my friends, without even remembering what it is. This is also the first time having any type of sedation since being diagnosed with bipolar disorder so this has me extra nervous about what might come out of my mouth.


If anyone did something for the 4th of July, I hope you had a good time!