when i'm alone, it's at its worst. i feel this overwhelming urge to escape. i'm a poly-addict and fell off the face of these forums for some time. isolation breeds self-destruction.

even today, i found myself using again. just desperate to escape it all. the memories, the mood swings, the hallucinations and loneliness.

i'm captured by these things. locked up, looking for a key. the cage in my heart expanded and took over me.

i'm alone rn and feeling that desperation. i want to forget i'm in the cage, but that will only prolong my stay.

for anyone who reads this, thank you for taking the time to do so.