I hear you about being conflicted. I was really reluctant to go on ODSP when I did, but honestly I was too sick to work at the time and my psychiatrist was encouraging me to apply for it, so I did and it was a real lifeline for me.

I would like to get off it, and am looking for jobs that will give me closer to full time hours so that I can get off it, but for now working part time and staying on it is really working well for me, I'm grateful to have it.