It’s not that I want to do that, it’s that I’m tired of avoiding it. If those around me knew what runs through my head on a daily basis, I have no doubt that’s exactly where they’d put me, assuming that they didn’t just walk. Pretending to be even ok-ish is exhausting, and I just get so tired of having to keep up the act 24/7. I’ve been putting on this Oscar worthy performance since I was a kid and I feel like I just can’t keep it up anymore. Fearing what others would do/stop doing if I let them see the real me has always been my drive to keep the sane mask on, but I’m to the point where I’m just too tired to care.