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i'm sorry for what you're going thru...again it hurts so much. i just thought of something, tho, when i read your post. i recall you mentioning p'doc so many times. however, are you in t?

i can share that i did the meds thing for 2 1/2 years and switching meds, etc. the entire time...nothing ever working for me...repeat over and over. however, when i began t, i began feeling better. are you seeing a t? i can't remember. if so, do you two discuss the "abyss" and the possible causes or triggers for going there? i do understand that you deal with bp and that i don't, so i know medication is very important. i'm not negating that fact. but, could it not be all physical? it my case, it wasn't. please don't get me wrong. i'm not saying that in your case it isn't all physical, but you just sound so much like i did back then and it made me wonder...

be safe and i hope you feel yourself climbing out soon.

kd