I'm scheduled for appointments with another therapist for 6 or 8 weeks while my therapist is out for his hip replacement. That makes it feel more real.

I tried to talk about it but I'm not doing well at explaining this to him. I wish I could cry. I think I'm appearing fairly cheerful instead of sad. My meds make me too numb to cry. I don't know if I've ever mentioned that to him.

I think it will be over in 10 weeks. I'd have to count again but I think that's right.