Pretty uneventful day. Dinner at Husband's mom's house because his sister and family are in town from Kansas. Felt sick afterwards, like I was gonna vom 🤢, but thankfully didn't. I'm not particularly fond of Sister-in-law and Family. I think they're kind of rich and snobby, but whatever. Things are always friendly and civil enough. And it's of course always nice to see my little niece and nephew. I just find extended family events draining.

Husband won't have any love right now. He's out in the living room watching some show. I went out there before and was like, "What ARE you doing?" and he said, "Watching my show. Want to watch my show with me?" And I kind of gave him some tender caresses and said, "No. I want to have sex." And he said, "But I don't want to right now. I'm watching my show." And I said, kind of pouty I'll admit, "But I'm HORNY." And he just kind of smiled and jokingly said, "I'm not a piece of meat!" Whatever! Lol.

My last appointment with my current psychiatrist is next week already. Have to buy him a card. Going to write him a nice note since I realize I haven't been the easiest to deal with. He even told me once that he's been very patient with me. So I just wanted to thank him for being so patient with me and understanding and overall being a great psychiatrist, best I've had so far, and how much I'm going to miss him. It hasn't really set in fully yet that my next appointment with him is the last time I'm ever going to see him. I've been seeing him once every four to six weeks for the last eight years. And my new psychiatrist is a POS. I saw her once. She fukked me up so bad by messing with my meds (took me off haldol and sertraline cold turkey) that I ended up IP, but it was either her or the Indian POS who took me off diazepam and loxapine cold turkey IP, and I'd rather NOT for sure go through cold turkey diazepam withdrawal in my near future. At least with this other POS I don't know if she'll take me off diazepam!

I guess I'll go to bed. Sigh. No love. Maybe I should go bother Husband again. No. I'll just go to sleep I guess. He IS watching his show after all. And he's NOT a piece of meat. Lol 😆