Dear T,

I'm really struggling with your suddenly taking vacation next week. I know you're still seeing clients virtually, but it's not the same. Especially with all the chaos and unknowns of the move. And when you said a month ago you didn't expect to take a vacation at all.

And I'm struggling, too, with the "I really need the money" response to my feeling bad for see you while you're on vacation. Which focuses on the transactional nature of the relationship. I know that's how it is, but it's still difficult.

And OF COURSE my parents' condo isn't available the time of your actual move. (Though who knows if it will happen then anyway?) I imagine R won't be available next week either... I'd ask if she'd be available the day you're moving Dr. H, but of course, you don't know when that day is, so not like I can schedule with her... And I guess she'd be packing anyway.

Trying not to email you about all this...Or to ask about availability tomorrow (though maybe you'd find a way to fit me in due to needing the money!)

Love,
LT