Had a really productive session with Dr. T today. He said today that we're both using different language to talk about transference and attachment, which makes it easier to discuss. That he thinks it stems from the "love" stuff discussions. How before that, it would seem like I was making a request of him, but now, it's more that I'm sharing feelings. I said it feels like we're each adapting to other, and he agreed.

I admitted how the younger part of me wished I could go on vacation with him. He said he was impressed that I was able to share that. And seemed accepting of it, where I think a couple years ago, he'd have reacted weirdly to it (I also wouldn't have said it then, for that reason). He said he knew I'd never actually ask him to do that. That we could just examine what's behind that want.

Later, we were talking about how maybe the high school journalism teacher I was attached to was the actual starting point to the transference stuff. How maybe he met some need that my parents didn't meet. I said he seemed to believe in me and my abilities in a way they didn't. Dr. T said it was like my first hit of cocaine. And we discussed some other stuff around that (perhaps I'll post in IST later). It's given me a lot to think about.