Bad news: my hypomania has turned to full-blown mania. H is this close to a asking me to the psych hospital, I am having, no appetite, pressured writing, delusions, hearing voices, high anxiety, easily agitated, jumping from task to task, feeling hyper sexual, pressured speech, impulsive decisions, high energy, talking loudly, jumping from task to task, decreased need for sleep(slept 4.5 hr last night), pretty much if it’s a symptom of mania, I have got it to the nn degree. But I feel AWESOME! I feel ALIVE again! I am so happy! No blunted emotions😁

Before H found out, I took Klonopin(last one though), hydroxyzine, and lamotrigine to calm down which is how I am writing this post.

I think I need the psych hospital but don’t want to go because H and even I don’t want the cost. It is SO expensive. I cannot go. H is sick, stressed and tired. I can’t put more. On him now.

I am having high anxiety and panic attacks due to high stress: hurricane Harvey, fear of not being adequately prepared for the next hurricane, panic Trump will be elected president.

I also started my period today.