I'm not manic! I promise.

Anxious day. Ugh. But took prn seroquel and Husband gave me the best O of my life (damn! Don't know how the man does it! Like I said, he drives me CRAZY!) and felt better. Then took a two hour long nap. Yawn. And woke up feeling FANTASTIC! Now I'm just texting people and did the dishes and have to do the cat litters still. I have time though.

Therapist thought my Amsterdam trip sounded cool! She seemed to think it was a GOOD idea. I'm still not going unfortunately 😔 but just saying. Even if I still feel like I absolutely MUST, but there's no way I can if Husband thinks it's a bad idea. He said I may want to invest my 401k money on something different in the future. My response is just YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE!!! YOLO!!! HAHAHA 😆

And my therapist thinks I'm not getting any sleep at night because I drink caffeine and vape. But I have to have at least a little bit of caffeine or I go through awful caffeine withdrawal and get grumpy, and nicotine withdrawal... WATCH OUT BYTCH. So I guess I just need to wean myself off caffeine and I'll be able to sleep at night. Didn't talk much during my appointment. She was terribly sobering (with all her caffeine and nicotine lecturing) and I didn't want to blab on and on and on so I was careful to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself. I see her on Wednesday again. Right after my last Dr. K appointment. Six month review! Past six months went by fast. I hate these stupid reviews where I have to go over what my "goals" are, etc. Whatever. I don't have goals.

I need to work on my novel, but can't seem to concentrate or focus on it. Don't know what's going on there.