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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
I'm not manic! I promise.
Anxious day. Ugh. But took prn seroquel and Husband gave me the best O of my life (damn! Don't know how the man does it! Like I said, he drives me CRAZY!) and felt better. Then took a two hour long nap. Yawn. And woke up feeling FANTASTIC! Now I'm just texting people and did the dishes and have to do the cat litters still. I have time though.
Therapist thought my Amsterdam trip sounded cool! She seemed to think it was a GOOD idea. I'm still not going unfortunately 😔 but just saying. Even if I still feel like I absolutely MUST, but there's no way I can if Husband thinks it's a bad idea. He said I may want to invest my 401k money on something different in the future. My response is just YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE!!! YOLO!!! HAHAHA 😆
And my therapist thinks I'm not getting any sleep at night because I drink caffeine and vape. But I have to have at least a little bit of caffeine or I go through awful caffeine withdrawal and get grumpy, and nicotine withdrawal... WATCH OUT BYTCH. So I guess I just need to wean myself off caffeine and I'll be able to sleep at night. Didn't talk much during my appointment. She was terribly sobering (with all her caffeine and nicotine lecturing) and I didn't want to blab on and on and on so I was careful to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself. I see her on Wednesday again. Right after my last Dr. K appointment. Six month review! Past six months went by fast. I hate these stupid reviews where I have to go over what my "goals" are, etc. Whatever. I don't have goals.
I need to work on my novel, but can't seem to concentrate or focus on it. Don't know what's going on there.
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I think you should print out your posts from here going on the last week or so, and show them to your pdoc & maybe your T though I am starting to think your T is worthless and not worrying about your hypomania, in fact kept going on about your hormones causing your issues, not hyopmania and telling you should see your pcp if I am remembering correctly. When does your pdoc retire? Maybe you should get this to your pdoc ASAP: Also print them out and show them to your H. Show your H ASAP. I mean, you say you don't keep secrets from your H and totallly love him, but I don't think he reads your posts (or not most of them on this thread) or he would be calling your pdoc endlessy, dragging you to the pdocs office or to the psych emergency room. If he really loves you as much as you say he does, he would do it some and/or all of that. I like your posts, but I don't like you going on endlessly about all your hypersexual stuff. I mean, that's private between you & your H. Or should be. I don't mind you saying you're hypersexual; that is a symtom of mania after all.
But details in nearly every post is just too much. Sorry if this hurts, I don't mean to be harsh to you; you give great advice to nearly everyone here. But I think you need to give great advice to yourself. And take care of yourself. Do your H, pdoc and T all think it's a not a problem that you are getting 2-3 hr. of sleep a night for well over a month? My H & my pdoc would have me in the hospital in a flash just for getting only 2 or 3 hours of sleep consistently. In fact, my pdoc pretty much said if my symptoms don't decrease in 1 week, I need the psych hospital.
And you know yourself vaping does NO favors for your health (physically & mentally) and that caffeine speeds a person up. You need to decrease caffeine and stop vaping too.
You are having some issues: obviously hypersexual, I mean most of us do not go on and on and on about lovemaking or wanting sex so bad you can't stand it or being explicit what you want to do with your H in general and how much you get it. (I am sorry; please don't report me. That would devastate me especially right not since I am having issues. I don't have any other people to understand what bipolar is really like except at MSF.)