@Mountaindewed
What time is your endoscopy? It will be OK. I had an endoscopy a few years ago. Honestly, the worst part of it was the prep and drinking the stuff. I woke up a little out of it but came around pretty fast, and I was starving from being on the liquid diet and having no solid food and just water to drink IDK was it after 12 AM till time before the endoscopy? I remember afterwards, H drove me straight to a nearby Mexican restaurant and got me a huge plate of Mexican food at the drive-thru. By the time I was home, I felt pretty normal again. H had an endoscopy around a year ago. His prep was different from mine he had to take I gues some sort of prescription laxative and down a lot of water within a given time period, not drink the stuff likd me. His prep was a lot worse than mine for some reason. He was having dry heaves (don't remember if he threw up but maybe some) along with diarrhea. The rest of his endoscopy went OK. He woke up groggier than I did and mumbled in the car before he had some real food. Afterwards, I drove him straight to McDonalds (H ate a ton of food for him, he's always been a moderate eater). He was a little tired from everything (mostly his prep I mean) but got back to normal quickly though I remember he took a couple days off of work.

I am starting to come down, maybe already? SHYYT! H and my daughter found a ton of mistakes in my med boxes (one for morning, one for night) and he thinks it was a med screwup. Anyone else have that happen? A med screwup causing mania? Well that in the fact that I only took oxycarbazepine whenever I felt like it, but honestly, the neurologist prescribed that for neuropathy and since my neuropathy wasn't getting ANY better I figured the oxycarbazeopine was not necessary and I only took it when I felt like it. Since the neurologist prescribed oxycarbazepine and NOT the pdoc (though pdoc knows I am supposed to be taking oxycarbazepine, Pdoc was out of sorts that I wasn't taking it . Pdoc told H that oxycarbazepine has some sort of effect for bipolar (God knows what) and I was also only taking half of the quetiapine tablet because I wanted to lose weight. Pdoc said get on the full dose of quetiapine pronto (BUMMER! Pdoc is such a downer!) I promised H that I would take my meds as prescribed and that once I was better I would use a medication app with pill identifers (and look at the practically invisible numbers and letters on each pill before putting it in my pillbox) and reminders as to when to take the pills. SHYYT! I tried that once before and got annoyed at all the stupid reminders. But I did make several pillbox mistakes. SOOO many pills look practically the same; especially the pills that are round white circles. And gabapentin looks a TON like Alpha-lipoic-acid (a supplement that I had been taking to help neuropathy).

Anyone else have meds that look practically the same? So that it's easy to confuse them when getting your weekly pillbox filled? And I HATE refilling my pillbox. It's such a pain. Not to mention EVERY week it reminds me I have bipolar and that I am crazy abnormal and mentally ill.

Oh, and pdoc put me back on lamotrigine. What the heck is that supposed to do? Also pdoc put me back on hydroxyzine which is supposed to help my anxiety and panic attacks. But hydoxyzine does NOT help anxiety a bit like a benzo would. I REALLY, REALLy wanted to go back on clonazepam, but pdoc said I was too forgetful on clonazepam at my appts. and H agreed wit pdoc. SH'yTT.

Crazy thing I think I am already coming down from mania. I felt SOO happy and energtic. Now my body feels exhausted though slept 8 hours last night. I want to go for a walk this morning, but my body is physically exhausted. Now I am drinking coffee from the stronges caffeine concentration Starbucks makes for the K-cups.

I am now peeing a lot more than I was and have weighed 5 lb. less this morning. Well, THA:T at least I hope is permanent and NOT a fluke. I still want to lose 5-10 more pounds.

Sorry if I missed anyone.

I am still hypomanic at least and wish I'd stay that way longer. I feel a LOT better when I am hypo and being blunted in the middle is NO fun AT ALL.

I still have pressured writing. Obviously.

DAYMN I have a lot of typos in this. I went back to edit them and couldn't concentrate to get thru the first paragrah Sorry abou that. Hope you get the gist of it.