Hi all!

Today I reached my goal! I had put up a little hilltop with a wonderful view as my aim, walking toward it in small steps at a time. I reached it today. It took me almost 4,5 km (2,8 miles) to reach it and 6306 steps. The first weeks from now, I will take the same walk every second day, then I will do it every week days and at last add with one day of hiking each week. I think all this will give me a good enough health both Psychologically and Physically.

It is so good to feel so close to the nature, listening to the birds and look at every beautiful view. Not to forget that when I am hiking, I never do that alone. It is good to enjoy good company as well.

I think I will make it from here, so I will not post so often! Since I am taking a break, I want to say something personal to each one of you:

@Blueberrybook Don’t think of yourself as crazy. That was how mental health was dealt with before. Don’t belittle yourself! You are a person who happens to have got bipolar 1. That is a severe condition, that needs you to take really good care of yourself. Fill your pillbox and be proud of yourself!

All persons with Bipolar 1 have my sympathy! When I say it this way, it doesn’t mean that I don’t consider Bipolar 2 or Cyclothymia as not sick enough, but that I know (from having known people with that diagnose) that MANIA is a though «thing» to live with or to beat.

When it comes to me, I never fulfilled the bipolar diagnosis system to the fullest. The best a therapist could do for me, was to name it as in the old bipolar NOS. But they never wanted to give me that diagnose officially. I felt that "the not formal diagnose" was some sort of recognition of the pain I suffered, even if it was not fully into the Bipolar disorders. Personally I think it is some form of unspesific braindisorder or a failure in the activation system in the brain.

So I have struggled so much to make my own therapeutic frame and have succeeded with that. It costs energy and time to live with the problems, but I am able to manage with my private tools that I have been thinking out by myself and so combined these tools with the CBT approach (most of the time), as I have told before. People whom have never experienced some form of Psychological Disorder (I don’t like the term MI), don’t know how lucky they are!

@Mountaindewed, I am glad that the colonoscopy went well! And you drank all the 13 glasses! WOW! I was not able to do that, and they said it was OK at the clinic.

@Blue_Bird hope you will have enough energy for the cats.

@BeyondtheRainbow Hope the heat will slow down at your place and that you will be able to eat properly and not stress yourself out on overthinking about «things» you think you haven’t done.

@Scooter9 Thinking on you! You have a lot on your shoulders. Hope you don’t suffer from pneumonia!

@victoria’smom Oh, you have a lot on your shoulders as well. You are in my thoughts!

@jmariah001 It is good that you have got a proper diagnose. Hope you find good treatment for it!

@June08 I hope it’s not a nasty cold. I had one some weeks ago, a lot of coughing. Good to hear that you feel stable emotionally for the time being.

@LadyShadow and @MuddyBoots, I hope both of you feel well (enough) to at least enjoy parts of life for the time being.

@hallieBET87 Please keep posting!

@unaluna, you have really found a way to keep track on your medications. I need to be better on that.

If there are persons here not mentioned, please forgive me! It is a lot of names to remember!

Am sending my best wishes to every one of you!