I've been so-called full recovery from my ED for better than 20 years with a handful of blips here and there, though none in the last 5 years or so.

HOWEVER, I have a hard time erasing the ED thinking and imprint. Thank GOD I no longer count calories, which if you have suffered from anorexia, to have a decent shot at recovery, once you are a healthy weight I DEFINITELY recommend trashing the calorie counting.

I love to read. For a long time, I've had a large collection of ED related books (fiction, memoirs mostly). I have also had for years a giant printout of list after list of ED books and was checking off the books I owned and spending money on new ED books.

I'm no longer BUYING ED-related books at all.

Today I trashed the list.

I plan to donate those books to the library, without reading or re-reading them. Friday, I hope. I take my daughter to the library to volunteer on Fridays. Now I just need to bag them up (don't have any boxes).

It's time to let that part of my life go.

I just wish the body dsymorphia part of that life would go too.