Hello everyone! Sorry I've been MIA. I said I wasn't going to post anymore and I don't like going back on my word but @
Blueberrybook you don't have to feel bad or guilty or anything at all! Don't worry. We're cool. 😊
Today has been absolutely DIVINE. Everything tastes good, is beautiful and I'm excited because I convinced Husband to take me to see KMFDM in Milwaukee in October. I got all angry. I was all like, "We're going to TWO concerts you like, and you wouldn't even drive me three hours to Chicago to see Sleep Token driving me to the point where my mania brain was willing to fly ALL THE WAY TO EUROPE to see them and empty out my retirement fund!!!!!"
Lol. Anyway, I thought I was censoring my hypersexual posts. I could have been MUCH MUCH more raunchy and graphic. I never once said sex, sucking ****, etc. This is the strangest hypomanic episode I've ever had. I've never had one quite like it. All I can think about are things that are too tmi to mention anymore and Sleep Token. I spent ALL DAY yesterday listening to all their albums straight through and following along with the lyrics to the songs and typing out the lyrics that touched me the most. Apparently I talk about Sleep Token all the time. This morning I was like, "I DO NOT talk about Sleep Token all the time!" and Husband and Daughter just looked at each other and laughed and were like, "Um, yes you do." And then they spent a good half hour making fun of the band and Vessel and saying I probably wanted a full body Vessel pillow, etc. Lol. Husband and Daughter are funny. 😁
I'm also excited because Saturday night Husband and I are going to a concert downtown and having a date night. It's going to be a night of LOVE. The other day (after a love encounter.... sorry) he said, "What, are we 20 again?!" Haha.
Daughter and I are getting matching bi pride shirts with the bi flag colors that say "can't think straight". Hahaha. I know pride month is over and we're just a little late to the party, but oh well. It's pride month year round around here.
I'm ALSO excited (sorry. I'm kind of excited right now 😊 ) because on Wednesday I get "paid" (aka get my SSDI check) and I'm getting Sleep Token merch. Also plan on getting a Sleep Token tattoo. Haven't decided the design yet, but I want the lyrics: the night belongs to you.
I've also been saying things today that haven't been coming out right. Like in the morning I told Husband and Daughter, "I don't love you more than Sleep Token." And at the park tonight I said, "He's still hot. I don't give a **** if he beats women." Obviously those things were NOT what I meant to say! Lol.
What else?
Oh, and I'm weaning myself off seroquel. I cut my dose in half (from 400mg to 200mg). It makes me so fat and thirsty!!!! I've been gaining, on average, five pounds every six weeks. At this rate I'll be in one of those scooters fat people ride by around this time next year. Ugh. I'm going to ask Dr. A at my first appointment with her if I can try latuda. I think I'm just going to have to because this weight gain is starting to scare me!!!!
Think that's all.
I'll shut up now. 😊
Looking forward to a nice night with Husband after Daughter goes to bed and some love. ❤️
Everyone have a nice night! Keep cool! Love you all. ❤️