@Scooter9
I am so sorry about everything you are growing through with your mother. When do you see your T? Hopefully, you can at least talk about it then.

I am sorry I want to respond to everyone else but Iam too wired up right now. Maybe shouldn't have had this coffee this morning. I've read all the posts though and those of you going thru hard times have my thoughts & prayers.

I am wired but my body is so tired, muscles and joints and such. I had to skip exercise this morning because of it. Maybe I will do pilates later in the day, maybe not because I need to cook dinner. H is concentrating on writing a grant proposal due soon and doesn't have time maybe I can getmy daughter to help but it will be like pulling teeth She hates cooking.

I feel like I have a motor whirring instead my brain or something. Brain going a million miles an hour. I want to talk but H wants quiet. So I tried watching TV with headphones on but kept thinking of other things that needed to be done and kept getting up to do them. So I kept getting up and sitting down again.

I saw the pdoc this morning. H came in this time and sat thru the appt. Pdoc said at least we avoided the psych hospital this time and that was big but if I start getting worse again I might have to go I have to see pdoc in 1 week again. What a pain. AND pdoc says no driving for a week!!! What the H*LL!!!Pdoc is such a downer. And H agreed with the stupid pdoc! Man! I am doing tons better! Why can't I drive at least locally? I have 3 prescriptions ready to pick up and the pharmacy is like a 5 min. drive away. I could do that at least. And H says he can't get them today and he knows I have plenty of those meds and it's fine to wait. But I always pick up my prescriptions as soon as theyre ready. I have some OCD too. In that my morning routine MUST be exactly the same: get up, use the bathroom, feed the cats, take care of litter, put away clean dishes (and if the dishwasher is not done overnight I get SO agitated, take out trash, exercise, shower & new clothes..etc. If I can't do that in the same way every single day, I get very agitated and just "off" IDK how to describe it.

Still have pressured writing. Sorry about a long post again.