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LadyShadow · Jul 17, 2024, 05:52 PM

Just a crazy day. Went out to Raleigh, taught my "Law of Attraction" class and had a nice crowd, they really enjoyed the material. Then went to my old rehab to take in an AA meeting and some of the girls really liked what I had to say and took my number, then met with one of my best friends for lunch at Chili's and then met with my sponsor to discuss my amends and recovery at a nice smoothie place. Jam packed day!! The hour drive home back wasn't fun either, but I am getting used to it. Have to drive back into Raleigh for work tomorrow, I wish I could have just packed a bag and stayed with one of my friends, it would have been easier.

The heartbreaking part is I really hurt my boyfriend. I said some things I shouldn't have - it's only been 2 months in our relationship, so I really overstepped. Now he's feeling really bad, and I topped it off by telling him that I wanted "space." I feel that no matter what I do I am being mean to him because I am so angry and irritated at the situation we're in. I want too much too fast, and I know I am being very unreasonable and impatient. I can agree with you @June08 in thinking that I might be hypomanic - just being overly demanding and not really understanding. Not like my character at all.