@Blueberrybook

I'm pretty ok with Remeron - it just makes me really tired so I take it just before I go to bed. I have no idea if it's doing anything and I have been on it for a long time.

Yeah going off all meds is a big step but I think it's necessary to find my baseline since I've been medicated for about 20 years now.

Sorry about your sister and her pneumonia!

Yes, I am the guy that recently went on the cruise. My mother was really sick during the cruise and I had lots of close contact with her, and it turns out that she had it too. My family was not well after the cruise, but no one else developed pneumonia - just myself and my mother.

The thing is, pneumonia is always in the environment so it's possible to catch it if your immune system is busy fighting something else.

It's good that you are aware of your hypomania. I know it's hard but try to pause before you do something. Just long enough to think about what you want to do before you do it to add some mindfulness into your day.