Thank you @Blueberrybook, @Scooter9, and June08. I wouldn’t say I’m in a depressive episode, but the only people I’ve really talked to irl are my mom, case manager, and T (and even those two lately half our appointments are over the phone). I made a typo, haven’t had my dr appointment yet, it’s tomorrow. I wish I had someone to come with me and hug me as stupid as that is haha. I intended to get these bottles of soda (I’m collecting the bottles because they’re rad af), but they do not open for another half hour and I am extremely close to a liquor store that is open.

Idk if I updated you guys on this, but Bean ran away and Lu died of a stroke. Bean was never meant to be inside. He was my little wild boy stray we gave shelter to in -40F weather, and we kept him inside until he got fixed and healed, but he clearly hated it (and made it everyone’s problem too lol). At least he had fun mutilating rabbits while keeping me company.Lu was straight up old—20 years I think. Bo is still going(her brother), but he’s not looking too great these days either.

Just feeling really alone lately. I appreciate you guys a lot. I’m more of a talk in person person, but you guys have shown me even without a face, there is still love to be found.

edit: ayyooo, back w/ my soda and no ETOH!