@Blueberrybook, bipolar is indeed crazy shyt! A rollercoaster designed for a few. One of those that kinda look like it's going to collapse at any moment and you love it, but you're terrified, and you think you're going to die, but manage to get out the train with just a bit of brain damage.

My favorite rollercoaster growing up was the Cyclone at Six Flags New England (probably wildest wooden I've been on), but it got pretty, uhhh, sketchy/dilapidated over the years and they renovated it as a hybrid. That's mania.

I forget what it was called, but across the park there was an inverted coaster that was definitely psychosis. First and only time I rode it, I was pretty small, and the restraints didn't quite fit, so yeah, going through the 6 some odd inversions with that was fun.

Depression is trying to get out the parking lot at closing lol.

Anyway, glad your racing thoughts have slowed a bit, and absolutely no reason to apologize. We get it

@JaneOnceMore, your dog is so cute! I love that you're talking to people and enjoying it, too. We all do things we regret, but the shame is just telling us it's something we want to do our best not to repeat those actions again. Use it as motivation to make a plan to keep yourself from getting in a position you're likely to do those things again. Don't beat yourself up, and don't feel like a failure if you repeat it despite efforts. Like we're saying, bipolar is some crazy shyt!

@June08 I hope you enjoy your trip! Hopefully you'll adjust to the time change quickly

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I'm just chillin'. It was nice and cool again this morning. I even put on a flannel when I woke up! It used to always be days like this: highs in the 80s and lows in the 50s/low 60s. Above 90 would be an event, not half the month. And some folks are saying "well, it's summer, of course it's going to be hot," YEAH! BUT NOT SO HOT I'M STILL DEHYDRATED AND NAUSEOUS EVERY DAY DESPITE DRINKING 4+ LITERS OF WATER AND A GATORADE! I have a "if it's below 90, no thunderstorms in the forecast, and it's not a crowded Saturday/Sunday/holiday" policy. Went hiking twice in the past month + a couple weeks. I have some opportunities this coming week though, so I'm obsessively looking at trail maps and through reports and groups on FB to see which trails/roads got washed out over the past few storms (two tornados, a microburst, some towns totally inaccessible to the rest of the world, and I don't even want to know what some of the water crossings looked like).