I started off this thread with “changing my responses”

Is just like to say, I’ve kept that focus in my mind for months.

When things blew up at work I was wrecked for about two weeks, but forced myself to refocus my thinking. There are people who carry an insurmountable degree of injustice. The one I was complaining about??? I missed out on a promotion and don’t fit the mood at work. Oh well

I came to realizations about my father. He’s a damaged person who grew up with trauma. He’s a good, moral person. He’s never wrong, and he’s not empathetic. He actually has some kind of emotional block, and admitting he’s wrong makes him vulnerable. Ok. Lots of people have grown up with worse.

Even my hopes of other work has changed. My relationship with my prospective partners has become less frantic and less heightened and more realistic and focused to “what can we do, right now, to start? And how can we grow with little risk?”

And, I’ve become more demanding of the kids. Sorry. I can’t do it all. Y’all need to help more. Love you tho!



RDMercer