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MuddyBoots
That's really sad about you and your past girlfriend. 😭 The relationship you describe you had with her sounds so deep and beautiful and touching. I'm so sorry that happened. 🫂 ❤️
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Blueberrybook
Yes. I've definitely gotten worse with age. I didn't have my first psychotic break until I was 31 years old! Something about becoming a new mother triggered something in me. I couldn't handle the stress of working full time and taking care of a newborn then baby then toddler. And Daughter was a good baby and toddler! Sleeping through the night at four months, rarely cried or had any tantrums, even when she was teething. I didn't have my first OD until after she was born. I got PPD really bad that lasted for at least two years! And even her birth was easy. All natural, no epidural or pain meds or anything. Only seven hours of labor. She's always been a good, easy going kid. I just couldn't handle being a mom for some reason!
I mean, I love it now. ❤️ It's absolutely divine. I can't imagine life without her. She's so funny and creative and talented. Likes to write a lot. Taking after me. 😊 And she's a VERY talented artist.
Anyway, so yes, has definitely gotten worse sadly, but I have a good support system (though Therapist is kind of questionable at times and Dr K just retired and I don't know about Dr A yet) and my meds and am on SSDI so I don't have to worry about freaking out at work anymore.
So everything has worked out. 😊
I'm supposed to take 50mg of seroquel in the morning, afternoon and 200mg at night. The morning dose makes me a bit sleepy because I take it with my morning loxapine, but the afternoon dose doesn't. I just take a hour and a half to two hour long nap in the morning and wake up feeling better.