Oh yeah, guys. That relationship was less of a connection and more like chasing the dragon together. Don't get me wrong, there were parts I definitely miss like that night on the mountain and skiing, but holy shyt were the both of us super fccked up then. I don't think there was a single day during that relationship both of us stayed sober. We were super lucky this was before there truly was "no safe experience."

There were two other serious partners that I seriously question if they're still alive too. To be fair one was old af (well, that's what a 17 y/o says about a 47 y/o anyways) and was having serious medical emergencies all the time. The other was a walking disaster. Seriously only remember fights with him. Really freaking nasty fights.

I kinda want to stay up as late as I can tonight.

And I will definitely be writing some crazy bipolar story stuff too